Duno how to describe how I was feeling yesterday..drained out..moody..emo..sotsot?

Received dear's smses yest when my lesson was ending..comforting to see certain words still there in the smses but at the same time..sad to c the words "forget me". Couldn't wait to get out of class...tears juz rolled down again..couldn't wait to call zhu..juz wana say everyting out to make myself more comfortable..

After reaching home..I dropped dear an email again..left him msn off9 msg too..juz in case he was appearing off9..which I thot he was. Went in to audi a while with zhu and den..juz din feel like talking..mind was full of whyys n more whyys..full of envy..full of helplessness..

Then later went msn..listened to the song dear left mi, over and over again and other sad songs..haha..I sound like a sadist? that's my style..and den left mi a msn msg that dear had left him..dear was appearing off9 all the while..from the msg he left den..could tell he has read my email..all I wanted to sae are all in my email..shan't elabaorate here..

Nal came on9 at that moment..an angel sent to cheer mi up? Cuz he seldom is stil on9 at such a time. Chatted a while wif him on9 then he said he wanted to give mi a call to entertain mi and cheer mi up. Was hesitant as he noes so much about mi and I din reali talk to him on the phone before. I had onli talked to him once before! And that was with my sis. Bz di-siaoing him then..haha..Nal popeye was in a good mood yest..so in the end we chatted on the fone..=] cartoon voice! lols..cant imagine him singing!~~~ Chatted quite a bit on the phone..for near to 2 hours..lol..power huh..the onli other person I can chat so long wif, is zhu and another hao peng you liao..alwiz talk to her hp batt bo liao..hahas...Tx dad for distracting mi a while..making mi luff wif ur funni voice and ur "diaos" and "urhurs"..din noe I actually knew nal for that long liao..since dec 2006? wow! x.x" Tx dad for your concern ---------read this! lols..

My house reali got a harmless spirit bah..esp during 2-4am..can hear sounds de at times..that time heard the keyboard typing sound but no one was at the computer! Dun sae I m dreaming..I was very sure I heard it..as it repeated 3 times..Charlene joked that the spirit wanted to play audi too..hahas..siao =.= sister oso encountered strange sonuds and plastics moving when window is closed =.= even my mum heard someone calling her "mama" and she thot we r back..but we were not..=/ Once I even saw someone went into the toilet in the middle of the nite...I thot it was my mum..but she said she did not..*scary* Juz leave us alone..

Juz finished eating my LOR MEE...guess I wun be seeing dear's msn window pop up again? Hais...reali miss him so much...reali do...wan so badly to talk wif him...