Found dear on9 in audi on Thursday after work..he was about to go off9 but I came..so we played for about 3 games..and he went off to slp..he was tired as he slept onli 1 hr the nite before..and I slept onli 2hr+..said he will be in msn latest by 10.30 after finishing his stuff..but he din on9 msn in the end..

Friday..he had said he wun b on9..but I left my msn on anihow. Fell aslp and when I woke..saw dear de msn msg..sae he afk go eat dinner..after i replied him which was about 10 min later..he sud bu jian le..he dc-ed and he din return. Haiz..

Then finally wkend is here..dear said he will b on9 in msn..I was looking forward to it..Waited in msn but din c him..from 9+ to 5+ until I went audi n saw dear in audi =.=" Then play wif him in audi for quite some time..and he keep dc-ing..We were playing happily and even talking about audi marriage, matching clothes and face.

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He said if he dc again..we go msn..and after he dc-ed..we went msn...was talking hapily for a while until he went audi to pei someone for a few games..Then he asked mi to send him something which I told him not to be angry after seeing it..and he promised..so I sent..but he still got angry..and went off9..

Haiz..y do I alwiz make him angry? I was looking forward to this wkend..I juz cried and needed zhu at that pt in time..tx zhu for picking my call n listening to mi..Well..duno if he wil on9 todae..but..probably not..if he's on9..should i find him?

I feel useless..i hate myself whenever i make him angry..Sometimes I wonder when will guys stand on our sides and tink? I am getting tired yet I wana hold on..like when we r sufferring in misery cuz of them..do they understand..or care to understand? No matter how vexed I am at work..when I had my dosage..I can juz tink of him and keep smiling throughout the whole day. But when something happens..I juz feel totally moodless...tired...drained...vexed....

today is my frien's bdae.....hope everyting will b shunshun lili for him...

Wish zhu all the best for your coming studies too...

Wish didi and ramen happiness...

Wish zihao a late birthday...

and lastly...wish everyting will be fine for mi again...