I login-ed occassionally to check if dear's on9..

finally saw him on9 during lunch hour..
chatted wif him on my hp msn..simple tings like these make mi contented.

M i easily contented? M i silly? Many will immediately nod their heads vigourously. No matter how much disappointments..seeing him on9 makes mi satisfied and happi..and accept wadever he has to tell mi..Sometimes I wonder how long more can I hold on..two tings i noe for sure that I learnt are tolerance and patience..

How long more can I last? I m starting to feel a little weary..tired..uncertain..

The only one who has the power to make mi smile or cry..extreme emotions...

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There r times I feel I have u..
Yet there r times I feel I have lost u..
There r times I feel I noe u..
Yet there r times u leave mi puzzled and wondering..

Normal u or abnormal u?
Seriously..the abnormal u scares mi..
insecurity..ur habits and interests..=\
y is there alwiz a distance..a gap between us..
a boulder...blocking inbetween..
its suffocating..draining mi out..
i wish i can walk deeper into the inner u..
n find out wads in store for mi..
but all i c..
is a stranger whom i tot i have gotten to noe a bit more through the year..

i wonder n i wonder..
when will that boulder be pushed away?
when will u throw the heavy stone in ur heart miles away?
Responsiblility? or a need to and a want to?
Hanging in mid air..u lift mi up and u throw mi down..
i wish i noe wad i m in ur heart...
holding on...i seem to b losing my grip..slowly..
my grip on the real u..n my grip on wad i reali wan..

* a girl who's lost her wae and struggling to find the right path into ur heart*

i guess i never will...