U noe U r in love
When U shed a tear
And still wants him.
When He ignores U
Breaks ur heart
And U still love him.
When U r missing him incredibly when U r apart
No matter wad length of time its for
Even when he's around
And U r tinking of him and missing him loads.
Its when all U noe
Is that you want to be there for him
When he needs U or wants U
And NEVER ever want to leave him..
Or have a life without him,
U noe U have fallen deeply for him.
When U see him
U forget everyting.
All ur stress, sadness turns to happiness immediately
Like a touch of magic.
Its when he's the only person
who can make u luff and cry silly.
Thats when U noe
He lives in ur heart.

If U ask mi if I need you..
The answer is FOREVER.
If U ask mi if I will leave you..
The answer is NEVER.
If U ask mi what I value..
The answer is YOU..
If U ask mi if I love you..
The answer is I DO..

All these r words from the bottom of my heart.
Words that describe my exact feelings..n i m not afraid to let him noe..

Took time off yesterday morning to sleep. Then went for work.Boliao day at work cuz I finished my stuff for the moment and was practially rotting in the office.

Had bought a pink psp the day before..Seems like I have a ting for electronics stuff..n spending money away unintentionally when i feel moody or tings r weighing mi down...camera..video camera..tv..radio..labtop..ps2..ipod...n now psp =\ mostly all rotting and collecting dust..other than my lappy and my ipod..seems this is the wae I release stress and its unhealthy..X.X

Then went to sch and stayed throughout even though I dun feel like it..went there full of energy..but left a half dead person. So boring can! x.x

And m very very thankful to zhu..for your presence and time and ur listening ear. I reali nid it. I am sorry the 1st person I tink of, to call, is U..I am sry to alwiz trouble U wif my matters and am very grateful that you are willing to listen to mi. Thanks for talking to mi on the fone that day for hours when I was out and waiting. Without U, I reali duno wad to do ler..Feels like we r getting closer and I am happi :) U showed mi concern and worried for mi that nite..sry to make U worry =\ and tx to my other 3 buddies for worrying for mi as well..><

J was on9 yest..I m glad he finally told mi how he felt. I felt happi yet at the same time..sad..I noe it sounds absurd to many ppl..y I could feel so much for him..though I onli noe him on9..Time and time again..I told myself that I need to b brave..lie to myself that I have gotten over it..but at the end of the day..I realise..I juz cant walk away..dun wan to walk away..I guess I din even wanted to try..I had written his name..deeply in my heart it is engraved..never to be erased away. I dun wan to act brave animore..I dun wan to act happi animore..I dun wan to lie myself animore..

Wad do I like about him? Dun ask mi cuz I dun reali noe..All I noe is to b able to see him..to be there for him and be needed by him is already a blessing to mi..He is alwiz constantly appearing in my mind...love him I reali do..miss him I reali do...I dun wan a life without him..Yes I need my frienz..but I DEFINATELY need him too..I am sry to be selfish..but the last ting I wan and never wan is to lose u..

Fell aslp talking to him on msn again at 3:45am..was waiting for his reply and I actually fell aslp..haiz..woke up onli when my sis on the bedroom light and getting rdy for sch and I juz jumped up and kept cursing myself. I will never lie on my bed when talking to J again..time wif him is so precious and I wan to talk to him! T__T

Duno when and if I will be able to talk to him again..haiz..J..I need u..

I oso wish for that one night of ur wish to come true..

Lets hold hands and go to a faraway place..even for a nite..lying down on the grass and staring at the stars together..it will be the best memory ever.

I miss U...


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Know all about
About your reputation
And how it's bound to be a heartbreak situation
But I can't help it if I'm helpless
Everytime that I'm where you are
You walk in and my strength walks out the door
Say my name and I can't fight it anymore
Oh I know, I should go
But I need your touch just too damn much
Loving you isn't really something I should do
Shouldn't wanna spend my time with you
That I should try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
Yeah baby you're the right kind of wrong
Might be a mistake
A mistake I'm making
But what you're giving I am happy to be taking
Cause no one's ever made me feel
The way I feel when I'm in your arms
They say you're something I should do without
They dpn't know what goes on
When the lights go out
There's no way to explain
All the pleasure is worth all the pain
Loving you isn't really something I should do
Shouldn't wanna spend my time with you
That I should try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
Yeah baby you're the right kind of wrong
I should try to run
But I just can't seem to
Casue everything I run you're the on I run to
Can't do without, what you do to me
I don't care if I'm in too deep
Konw all about
About your reputation
And how its' boound to be a heartbreak situation
But I can't help it if I'm helpless
Everytime that I'm where you are
Oh I know I should go
But I need your touch just too damn much
Loving you isn't really something I should do
Shouldn't wanna spend myh time with you
That I shold try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
Yeah baby you're the right kind of wrong
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