Dear onlined at about 6.10 pm yest and gang hao I juz finished eating my dinner. Dear was busy as usual, reading his stuff again..So he read his, n I read mine. Both feeling so sian luh..haiz..n the lecture note i m reading has 42 pages..n i m still stuck at it..somemore i m juz reading & writing down some notes..kinda give up reading the textbook.

Then dear went offline to bathe at 9.45pm..yi offline jiu offline until 12am..I had gone in audi to find Qing mei a while..Missed her! Then lazy to play ler, juz nice dear online ler :)

Noticed zhu & Cayden's nicks. Something was wrong. So jiu msn-ed piggie..but she wasn't in a good state. "Love n cherish urself"....hope both r feeling ok now.

Dear wasn't in the best of moods oso. He was fed up about some matters. But managed to cheer up after some time. :) Then he was busy busy busy again..n feeling sian too...I was sian too..sian of reading =\

Many a times, we humans tend to get frustrated at stuff..tings that make us upset be it small or big..and tend to want to vent our anger somewhere somehow. Different people let loose of emotions differently. In a spur of anger and doing tings that will hurt ourself or make ourself more miserable onli to regret it later or luff at our own folly. We juz dun realise how silly it is. Juz like how I gorge myself wif endless food or spending money like water juz to fa xie..in the end juz end up xintong over the money spent or feeling unwell due to overeating. haa..huo gai zi zuo zi shou, onli to bear the after effects. I guess that's human's wae of making themself feel better, a thinking that no one cares so might as well juz hurt themselves. Aniwae, die le no one cares too. Juz an insignificant dot on Earth. Cuz I do feel that wae too when I m upset or angry. But I guess at the end of the day, if even u urself cant love urself..no one else can..a mentality that's hard to overcome bah...everyone needs some form of love, esp the support and love and care coming from their most treasured one...duno wad i talking ler..read until sotsot ler..=\

And thanks Cayden for the sweet msn msg before he offlined and I din had enuf time to reply..I guess I m easily contented bah. Dear asked mi if I can pei him and of cuz I agreed. I will b more than happi to b there for him..even though it's like watching him silently..hope to give him support in a wae =] At about 2.20am I asked dear he's gonna read his stuff until wad time..then he said throughout the nite. Asked mi to go slp if i m tired. But I din wan to. Then dear scared I tired bah..sae he go offline first..4.30 am then back. Wan mi get some slp at least..then wake up pei him if I can..then he jiu off9 le..=[

I off my lappy and set my alarm at 4.25am..planning to get up, pei dear and continue reading my notes. In the end..i duno wad happened..din hear my alarm or pressed off my alarm and continued slping, or my alarm din ring or wad..I duno ...zhong zhi I slept through 4.30am =.= End up din pei dear..din read my stuff..Sian diao. By the time I worke..6am le..and dear wasn't online. Muz have disappointed dear. Haiz..I reali like a pig nowadaes. Dear will be busy the whole day today. N sure very tired..Hope he has enuf energy to go through todae..Jiayou dear!

Today on leave..sianz..muz force myself to read through! Wish so much to have dear's determination. Wish so much to have at least 70% of his cao ren and multi tasking ability!

Enuf of blogging for now..dosages r depleting...back to studies soon..Wish I can burn them all!