Practically rotting in the office now. Still waiting for client's payroll information to come in before I can start processing it. Sianz. So came in here to blog a while. Today both supervisor and teammate not around. Our team onli left me and manager report to work today. Duno wad to do now. Wad I m supposed to finish at the moment, is done.

Yesterday waited till quite late but din c dear online. Then I left my msn on and fell asleep. Duno y nowadaes I feel so tired. Came home jiu sleep then audi a while and sleep again..=\ Guess dear was online yesterday but did not msn mi, judging from is msn personal msg. I tink my msn auto set mi away cuz I did not touch my lappy for quite long..and I suppose dear noes that I had fallen asleep. Haiz. I miss my dosages alot..

The friendship balloon I had let go flew back yesterday again. He smsed mi and asked if I was not online? I was..but I had blocked him. So jiu unblocked him in msn. He oso noe I blocked him. lolz..Then he msned mi. Said he couldn't slp after he scolded mi that day..and somemore we were buddies for 1 yr+. Expected me to talk to him like noting happened, like last time..I felt I couldn't reali do it. I juz did not reali feel like talking to him yesterday, so my replies were short and cold. I guess I nid time to get over it bah..at the moment, I juz felt I can't help putting on my guard against him, still. He had initated to save this friendship..Wad's my next step?

Can't call zhu during lunch hours juz like last time ler. In fact, we din talk for quite long already, other than in audi or occassionally in msn. In audi, she oso blocks her pm. Haiz. Kinda feel we seem to be drifting apart.

Sian-ed. I miss dear. I miss zhu as well.

Somehow I muz force myself to read through abit of my notes today. Hope I will c dear tonite. I reali miss him so much..