Haven been talking much to dear for the past few days. He is either busy or moodless..tells mi he will talk to mi later..but "later" never comes..offlines without a word and never comes back..

Thought alot on my way to work..in fact came to work with a heavy heart. So much is juz stuck in there, I feel I couldnt breathe. Cant help feeling I am going to lose everyting..soon...very soon....lose dear..lose everyting....lacking of confidence in everyting I do lately..all alone in a pitch black world..almost invisible..tired and struggling....slowly...I will juz start to camoflague wif the surroundings...