Sometimes tings supposedly solved in actual fact still remains unresolved..unknowingly it has become like a shadow in ur life such that something supposedly not a big matter has become of significance to you because of probably something that happened in ur past? To get rid of that shadow..i guess you nid lots of courage..lots of support..lots of trust.. lots of determination and a change in your mindset. But i guess it has a lot to do wif one's character too. Sometimes we juz got to learn to let certain past go..and stop it from hindering our happiness in the future. No pt to keep raking up the unhappi past when you know it is not this presently and end up feeling upset about it, isn't it?

I hate the feeling of helplessness, not knowing wad has happened and all I could do is see the person upset and yet not being able to be there for the person, know wad is going on in the person's mind. And the worst ting is not being able to ask. I hate being ignored. Hate having to do guessing games. Hate trying to analyze the situations that have happened. Hate being uneeded.

Woke up late todae..still feeling so tired but the time made mi crawl out of my bed unwillingly. Audi-ed a while before going to msn. Then returned to audi to lvl my little bun and saw dear online. Played audi wif him for 2 games, then he went to rename his other character while I took my lvl 6 licence. After that went npc wif dear, piggy, king, eileen and some guild members. Finally bought my colour pen :)Had been npcing for a few hours after that.

Feeling very drained. Tx zhu for your msn title as soon as you saw wad was on my msn title..=\



Quite touched :)

I know its gonna be hard to try to master the technique of smiling through the day no matter wad happens and no matter wad affects me cuz I for one, is an emotional person. Heart rules over my head. I reali got to try to wif many new tings happening everyday in my life that is weighing mi down or I will reali go crazy! Give mi a break soon! And Serena, GIVE YOUR WIDEST SMILE! YOU CAN DO IT!

Realli start to miss those poly days. I guess those days are the most exciting and most interesting, most colourful and wif at least less worries and less stress. :) How i wish there is a time machine infront of mi. Then I can return to those times when I enjoy myself and erase those unhappi events in my life, and erase away certain people not worth knowing. Then life will be full of happiness, love, peace and joy! A regretless life.

Tings I wana get and do : -

Craving for my steamboat! Liver~~~~ And god I love my sis's handphone..And ktv!

Smile smile smile smile smile~