took one dae leave...thought can enjoy it wif dear...but he was bz...din realii talk..until later part..his response was a little quicker....but soon..he got to go and entertain 4 qian jin? Feeling sian-ed. Endless introductions of girls to him......how am i supposed to feel right now? Anione in their right mind wouldn't wan to share their loved one wif another...but wad right do i have? i dun have ani...and when the right one comes along...there goes mi..right into the dustbin..

i seriously duno wad to tink right now...and am seriously not enjoying wad i m supposed to b enjoying right now...juz stoning there.....waiting for the dreaded moment when they go to his house..and the dreadful moment i need to share him wif not one..but 4 girls..not that i have no confidence in myself..but so wad if i reali do have confidence? Afterall wad right do i have?

Afterall onli in ur dreams m i realistic.. [[ 1:32pm ]]


I duno how I should be feeling rite now. U said I have the rights and dun i get it? But to tink of it..I do have the rights? nah..Can i juz be selfish , jealous , angry juz like ani other people? but i am in absolutely no position to do so. I wish I have the rights.. but wad m i supposed to sae or how m i supposed to react? Afterall..if something does happen..wad can i do about it? force u? oO? And sae NO U CANT DO THAT...?? my onli choice is to wish u all the best and walk away bah..wad can i do except to accept? Feeling all in a mess...cant u understand how selfish I am? ur 1st cyber girlfriend..oO hmm...a statement I should be happi about? ya...UR GER...virtually.....................